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and its december.
music is saving my sanity now a days. i did have a bit of a breakdown while working in my lab the other day because i was listening to journey. sad.
i dont cry everyday anymore...
i do still dream of him basically every night...
it sucks but it will get better.
ive got four semesters left after this one? yes!
i will have a bachelors in chemistry and a shiny new teaching license to go with it.
im going to be one of those teachers that clicks down the hallway in her heels. you'll know im coming. very exciting!
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| its way harder to be mature and responsible. but i like it better that way. i would rater be mature and responsible than immature and irresponsible. does that make sense? i'm goin to spain. |
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| he cheated on me with shelby wertin. |
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| he doesn't know how much this hurt me.
he has lost me forever.
i cannot deal with this.
i cant believe i am expected to carry on with my day today.
i am falling apart.
i am back to square one.
i have no one.
he is a fucking jerk.
if he really cared, this would have never happened.
i must be unlovable. what is wrong with me? what is wrong with other people? why cant something just work out for once? why cant i find the person who is really willing to do ANYTHING for me?
why do i get lied to all the time? |
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| so lost
so confused
and alone.
again.
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